Ready, Set, Go!!

Yesterday was day one...it was a relief to finally get started but very surreal.

Most days I feel that I am at peace with my diagnosis, but sometimes I wonder if I am at peace because I don't really accept that it is happening. At the hospital yesterday I almost felt like a fraud. The other patients were obviously sick...and I have a full head of hair and a Rubenesque body (that's a nice way to say I am on the fat side) and a pretty upbeat attitude. I guess in a few months I might look like them too...or maybe I will retain all of the above throughout this treatment. :)

I started off with taking my anti-nausea pill. This was followed by 26 chemo pills and 10 steroid pills. Then I got an IV for the bone medication (once a month) that takes 2.5 hours to drip. About a half hour in they brought the other cancer drug and injected that into my subcutaneous fat....in my belly. I asked the nurse if it would dissolve the fat, as that would be a welcome side effect and she said she'd make that a suggestion. <chuckles all round>. I took another anti-nausea pill before I left and that was it.

We came home, had lunch and I went for a nap. I felt really foggy...or dopey. Al says "that's normal, isn't it?"...to which I replied..."for you maybe!". He is such a sweet guy. LOL

Once I got up I was very fidgety. My hips were achy...not sure if it was from the meds or from the fall I took on the ice on Tuesday. I just could not get comfortable. I was also in the mood to eat...graze is more like it...several trips to the fridge...cheese, salami, turkey breast, cookies, chocolate, jello, peanuts...OMG!  I finally decided maybe I should just go back up to bed and try to sleep it off. That worked! Once I got to sleep I slept most of the night.

Had to get up a few times to void my bladder though...you see the chemo drug can cause bladder cancer so I have to drink lots and pee lots, even during the night. My son could not believe that they would give me a drug to destroy the cancer that will actually cause another cancer...He's starting to realize how unfair life really is.

Anyway my honey just arrived with my coffee, so I will sign off now. I am feeling great today...no nausea, no jitters -- yet...have to take those steroids again in a bit...we'll see if they are the culprit.

Have a great day!